Im lonely....missing him a lot?

when he came i had a very close buddy and he said that my buddy is ussin me wherelse me n my buddy have been together 4 more than 2 year..n there cm a time where my buddy who was like a bro to me started gettin far from me n said he is usin u...suddenly 1 day there was an arguement n my bfrnd asked me if u want me ask your buddy to get out of my hse...n i did told my buddy to look 4 a place 4 him...then it was only me n him in the hse..im divorced n have a beautiful daughter she lives wt my mom...so my bfrnd said i should look at my self at the mirror that im a janda and hw could i even think of another relationship but in the beginning he was so encouraging....i really loved him without expecting anythng because he told me that he will marry the person that his mother chooses so i said live is to happy if that is wat u want we will spend time together as time pes we became very attach but in my heart i knw he is goin to go 1 day but i still gave him the best out of me...y i bcs i have this feeling that im married before y stop him venture married live i was willing to sacrifice my love strongly thinkin i have my daughter....but he reminds me everyday by sayin im jas a friend recently but smtimes he say im his gfrnd n i own him....until nw im calling n calling him but he is just treating me like a dog...i miss him so much doesnt he knw that ..smtimes when i hear his voice my tone of voice changes and he says dnt cry and do a drama...he is angry with me bcs recently i asked him to get out of my hse bcs when he cant even say im his gfrnd y should he stay in my hse and be wt me....i did that in disappointment n anger n at times i quarrel with him bcs i knew he sent a sms to his x gfrnd in indonesia askin does she miss him on bed after makin love with me......y did he do that....im the one always romancing him n he is always below never dn anthing...y y y y..im nt askin him to marry me or wat but y is he like that ..when i spoke to his x she said i got no woooos la for this guy so i told him u said your x is the 1 who is missing u bt she says t other way round so he told me im jealous n tryin to break their friendshp and he said that she is in his heart n im at his ...he said sorry he said it in anger n i forgot abt it but if i said smthg he keeps it in his heart and does tis to me....i jas dnt knw im so soft hearted wt him but he just threw me away.........