Have you ever found happiness in hopelessness?

In recent years, I have lost all hope in the human race. Sometimes I think the world would be a better place if we humans weren't in it. My father was given a 10 year sentence in prison. He was killed by another inmate before his release date. I have lost all faith in the human race. If this kind of thing can happen in America, the greatest nation on Earth, then the human race no longer has any hope. In this hopelessness, I feel like I have found happiness. I live my life not to the fullest, but to the funnest. I go out to bars more, concerts more, hookers more, everything more. I spend my life partying now. I have as much fun as I can. I would rather die young and happy, then old and bitter. The world obviously doesn't care. Why should I??? Why should anyone????